Its been around 4 months now that I have left Chicago. And I miss it.... badly... Everyone says California is good.. weather is great blah blah.. but I feel Chicago is the best place I have been till today... and not just cuz of the city .. its the people in Chicago who make that place special.
Those 3 years in the university were amazing. Why do have to graduate.. why do have to grow up and get a job n face the real world.... at times it feels all bullshit... We dream of having a car, whn we have to travel by CTA in the freezing cold winters, we dream of having an appartment to ourselves when we stay between 4 others in a 1BHK, we dream of having money in our accounts n higher credit limits. But when we get all these.... one thing we miss are those days... where we used to eat only hashbrowns n frozen parathas for lunch, when we used to split bills equally and then ask each other "yaar tip kitni deni hai", fill $5 gas in car cuz we still hadnt got our off-campus pay, and 6 ppl sharing $45 booze on the house at V-live. Man I miss those days...
Master (Vibhor) , the one person who I miss the most from Chicago. It was like a default thing to see both of us together whnever we went out. May it be clubs, restaurants, movies. casinos, etc... gng to clubs.. gettin drunk and then the subway on 31st n halsted.... gng to samah and bars to watch games....
Everyday I wonder, why am I in such a place where I fall short of someone who could give me company... Master undoubtedly is one of the best companies u will ever find...
Khushi's food and her constant complaining about her lab, job etc etc... hehe.. i miss that too.. the long philosophical talks... or sometimes she gettin emotional and shedding a few tears... late night baskin n dunkin.... n obv her butter chicken a puff patty... i miss you......
Kanwardeep... Cheers bro.... i guess that enough to say hehe... long nights... long talks... long puffs of smoke... n alotttttttttttt of beers... the only scene that comes to my mind whn i think about him... one of the best person to be with and also the best person to sit and drink with.... Man i miss you and hopefully I shall soon be in NC !!!
Pooja... I consider myself lucky to have 2 frnds who are amazing cooks.. Khushi n Pooja... Doing garba randonly at home... makin me eat whn I got drunk.... Beer bottoms up... hehe... and just like the 6th member of 1204... thanks for everything.....
Zennnnnnnnnnn, beautiful smilee..... but constant questioning (tht inlcudes Divya too)... zero direction sense.... n continous laughing, n tht too silent.. u wont hear a sound from her mouth whn she is laughing... a good cook again.. specially chicken... miss those dinners at 1815... tabboooo... pictionary and seeing her gettin drunk.... lol...
Special mention to Patel.. although he is not here. .. i guess everyone miss him... n if u read this... B#$%h$d... u have to call everyone....
One more special mention is Bijal, for 3 reasons--- Firstly, I miss her, 2- She is a constant supporter of my writing n my blog... 3- She is gettin married in a few days.. Congratssssssssssss.... I miss you too......
There are many many more things and ppl I miss abt Chicago ... but these are the closest to my heart...
It is cuz of all of u guys that I wish so badly to be in Chicago, and I shall soon be there, no matter what.... (although I am thinking of skipping this winter) hehe............
Thanks all of the woderful time, those 3 years in Chicago and in 1204....
Love u all....
Sunday, November 14, 2010
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
Me in 2004 :)
Ok guys after the longest time. This one is from the box.. I was going through all the poems I wrote ages back and I thought I should share like a couple of poems. You guys would think I am crazy but thats how I was. These were dated somewhere in 2004. So, yea like 6 years back hehe....
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I will love you,
Till my heart will beat,
Till I walk on my feet,
Till my eyes will cry,
Till my tears dry,
Till my ears hear,
even if it is not clear,
Till my fingers write,
Till my teeth bite,
till my mouth eats,
even the smallest of bits,
Till my hair grows,
and I stand on my toes,
And finally,
Till my death,
Until I take my last breath,
I'll always love you.
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You can see it on my face,
You can see it in my eye,
You can see it in my truth,
You can see it in my lie.
You can see it in my speech,
You can see it in my talk,
You can see it in my run,
You can see it in my walk.
You can see it in my sit,
You can see it in my sleep,
You can see it in my laugh,
You can see it in my weep.
You can see it in my smile,
You can see it in my tear,
You can see it in my depression,
You can see it in my fear.
You can see it in my aim,
You can see it in my goal,
You can see it in my heart,
You can see it in my soul.
You can see it all around,
You can see it here and there,
My love for you is the only thing,
You can see each and every where.
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Comments welcome...
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
SMILE :-)
Hey guys... Please search “validation short movie” on youtube and see the first video. It’s a 16 min video, and its one of the most beautiful videos you would ever see. One of my friends asked me to watch it the other day and I found it amazing, I had a smile on my face after watching it.(Thanks Riddhi) . But it made me think a lot of things, about how we are, how we were and what has happened to us. Where have all the smiles gone??
I remember as a kid,
Even though our canvas shoes were soiled,
Our uniforms were stained,
Our hair was partitioned with lots of oil.
We still had a smile,
An unconditional, natural smile
We wear Armani suits, with Italian leather shoes,
Our wallets filled with cash and credit cards,
Driving the Benzes and BMWs,
Living the dream, for which we work hard.
But where has that smile gone,
That unconditional, natural smile
At a roadside restaurant, we used to meet,
And all it took was a single stem of rose,
We complimented her on her looks, hair, clothes,
That’s the only way we knew how to propose.
All we wanted is to see her smile.
That unconditional, natural smile
Love has altogether a different meaning now,
With a carat of solitaire embedded in white gold,
We use our minds, more than our hearts,
Breaking all the dreams and promises that we once told
What happened about her smile?
That unconditional, natural smile
We shared our tiffins during the breaks,
Sliced a piece of bread into two, for me and you,
Shared our pencils, erasers, sharpeners, etc
Did the homework for each other the night before it was due
We wanted to see our friends smile.
That unconditional, natural smile
We don’t share assignments anymore, study alone for exams,
We don’t help someone who actually is in need,
We run this race and want to win it no matter what,
What’s up with all this greed?
Where did your concern about their smile go?
That uncontional, natural smile.
We have come a long way guys……
To Toyotas and Hondas from Marutis and Tatas,
To Nikes and Pumas from Libertys and Batas
From Samosas and Chats to Burgers and Subs,
From Parks and Grounds to Discos and Pubs
To Restaurants and Hotels from Classes and Dorms,
To Jeans and Tops from the Blue and White Uniforms.
We actually have come a long way..
But in the course of the way we have got lost,
We run, run, run… run the race the world has set,
And if it carries on, we will surely exhaust.
Without realizing that we are forgetting the basics of life,
Happiness lies within, within yourself and the people around,
But we try searching it in the form of money and possessions,
Not knowing that there it would never be found.
Just try to make someone smile today,
It’s not about ME,
It’s all about WE.
I remember as a kid,
Even though our canvas shoes were soiled,
Our uniforms were stained,
Our hair was partitioned with lots of oil.
We still had a smile,
An unconditional, natural smile
We wear Armani suits, with Italian leather shoes,
Our wallets filled with cash and credit cards,
Driving the Benzes and BMWs,
Living the dream, for which we work hard.
But where has that smile gone,
That unconditional, natural smile
At a roadside restaurant, we used to meet,
And all it took was a single stem of rose,
We complimented her on her looks, hair, clothes,
That’s the only way we knew how to propose.
All we wanted is to see her smile.
That unconditional, natural smile
Love has altogether a different meaning now,
With a carat of solitaire embedded in white gold,
We use our minds, more than our hearts,
Breaking all the dreams and promises that we once told
What happened about her smile?
That unconditional, natural smile
We shared our tiffins during the breaks,
Sliced a piece of bread into two, for me and you,
Shared our pencils, erasers, sharpeners, etc
Did the homework for each other the night before it was due
We wanted to see our friends smile.
That unconditional, natural smile
We don’t share assignments anymore, study alone for exams,
We don’t help someone who actually is in need,
We run this race and want to win it no matter what,
What’s up with all this greed?
Where did your concern about their smile go?
That uncontional, natural smile.
We have come a long way guys……
To Toyotas and Hondas from Marutis and Tatas,
To Nikes and Pumas from Libertys and Batas
From Samosas and Chats to Burgers and Subs,
From Parks and Grounds to Discos and Pubs
To Restaurants and Hotels from Classes and Dorms,
To Jeans and Tops from the Blue and White Uniforms.
We actually have come a long way..
But in the course of the way we have got lost,
We run, run, run… run the race the world has set,
And if it carries on, we will surely exhaust.
Without realizing that we are forgetting the basics of life,
Happiness lies within, within yourself and the people around,
But we try searching it in the form of money and possessions,
Not knowing that there it would never be found.
Just try to make someone smile today,
It’s not about ME,
It’s all about WE.
Monday, January 18, 2010
Ek chotti si love story....NOT
Hello guys. Finally…… :)
Its been like the longest time that I have written and now a days I have started doubting my writing abilities. Its really sad that in spite of having at least a few people that follow what I write, I never take the pains to do so. Anyways, today I am gonna narrate a story, a very long story which I have made it short, but if I get good response, I would want to write a whole book on it. This is just a gist of it. Let’s see how good I bring across the story to you guys.
Since childhood, we have read thoughts and proverbs of great writers. It sounds so good when you read those. Every morning in the school, I used to read the thought of the day and felt that one could never be true. It just words and those would be rather tough to put into actions. But I have seen one come true, and which one was that???? For that you would have to read the whole story.
And yeah it is a love story, so lets name the gal Kareena and lets name the guy Shahid. I would keep adding characters as the story progresses. I have used such name to make it a lil bit funny and you could picture a proper scene in your head while you read this.
Dec 1998;
Shahid and Kareena used to live in the same building since childhood. Both of them had a crush on each other, they also don’t remember since when. Kareena used to wish, whenever she pressed the elevator button, that she would meet Shahid in the elevator and both of them could spend a few floors together, without saying anything. Just smiling. Shahid was also not less. He used to wait for Kareena, sitting in his balcony and as soon as he would see her, he would turn on the stereo system inside the room and sit with a guitar in his hand, pretending to play one. Such a beautiful time it is, when we are kids and we think we are in love and we try our best to impress the other person. So such sweet cute and kiddish gestures continued for a couple of years, until they reached their late teenage. It was probably the mid of 2001 when Shahid gathered all the courage he had, to ask out Kareena. Ask out Kareena for what? To ride her to the tuitions on the new bike he had bought J… but finally both of them confessed their love and attraction for each other and here starts one of the longest love stories that I have ever known.
The first couple of years were amazing. The other person was the world for them. If you had seen them, you would have wondered that are there any other people who are more in love with each other than both of them. They used to go for movies, asked for corner seats and hold hands while watching movies. They used to sit on the same side of the table when they went out to eat. They shared the same bottle, with two straws in it. And when the guy was asked to have the last sip, he said I don’t need need this, I already have you. They used to celebrate monthly anniversaryJ. Things like these continued and within a blink of an eye, they were celebrating their sixth annual anniversary. J Kareena had already graduated from school and she was about to leave for London for her higher studies. This was a very emotional and touchy moment for both of them. Never in their lives, there hadn’t been a time where they would not see other for a long period of time. It was not at all easy for them to part. But they had to. They had no other option.
A couple of days before Kareena was supposed to leave for London, both of them sat on the rocks by the sea, their sights stretching out through the horizons, sitting hand n hand, speechless. The silence spoke everything. They could feel the presence of each other. They could imagine their life complete with each other. They decided that they would get engaged once Kareena finished her studies. Both the families also knew about their relationship. It wasn’t a secret anymore. Kareena’s brother, Ranbir, was also Shahid’s friend by now and Kareena’s mom, lets just call her Maa also knew Shahid very well and they were more like friends.
Just when everything seems to be going right, something unexpected happens. I know you guys also might be sensing it, cuz everything was going so smooth, and that is not possible. There has to be hurdles, there has to be challenges. A few months after she came here, Shahid started acting weird. He started checking her mails, calls, etc. From the perfect boyfriend anyone could have, he started being over possessive and dominant, which was too much for Kareena to handle. Being away from home, from Maa, from friends added to the agony of Kareena, and it was not too late before the bubble busted and they decided to walk their own paths. It was heart breaking, for both of them. How could such a beautiful relation like that come to such an abrupt end? But it was the end and both of them had to realize it. Kareena was a lil slow in getting used to the fact that she was single again, after seven long years. It took her time, it took her courage, it took her tears and took her a lot of strength to get back up and now walk alone with no one around.
Let’s fast forward almost a year and half now. Life again got back to normal for both of them. Kareena studied in London and was working, made new friends, met new people. Shahid was in India, doing his own work. Both of them were on their ways. But the thought still bothered Kareena. She would have nightmares. She would wake up in the middle of the night. Things were not as easy as it would seem. On the other side of the globe, Shahid was still talking to Ranbir and also made it a point to regularly visit Maa. This was frustrating Kareena to the core, as both of them had stopped being in touch through any form, may it be calls, mails or texts.
But however good or bad the situation is, it changes. And for Kareena it was the same. On this very important stage of life, where she was done studying and wedding was on the cards, she met this guy in London called Saif. Both of them clicked instantly. It didn’t take them long to get acquainted to each other. They already knew each other from before, but they personally got to know each other in the summer of 2009. And it wasn’t even a couple of months that they were into a relationship and were thinking about engagement and wedding etc etc. Love was in the air again, the bells were ringing, the birds were chirping. It was one relationship that everyone including Kareena was excited about. But what was Shahid doing back in India. Was he dating someone?? Was he still waiting for Kareena?? No one knew his where abouts.
Kareena’s friend Abhisek always used to tell her that don’t you think this is going way too fast. He always said that the faster you rise, the more quickly you fall. And it was just a matter of time that it had to happen. Kareena left London to go back to Maa and Saif started showing his true colors. Why did this happen to her?? In both the times, why did the guys turn out to be like this as soon as distance came into the relationship? Kareena was not as broke as one would have thought after that. She was ok. May be cuz it wasn’t a long time that they were dating and good that it happened quickly.
She went back home, to the same building where Shahid lived. She wished not to confront him, trying to avoid. But one fine day, they landed up together in the elevator. The same scene was replayed, which Kareena always hoped would happen about 10 years ago. Both of them in the elevator, but no one uttered a word. It was weird. And as every Hindi movie, where mom plays a vital role, so did Maa play an important role here. She played the cupid. She told her certain things which Kareena never knew. Some stuff she absolutely had no idea of. Right after Kareena had left for London, Shahid saw that in this far away land, she was doing good, trying to focus on her career and so he did not wanna be a botheration in that. That was the reason he started acting weird and different, so that they could part off and she could not be constrained by the relationship and could strive for her dreams. That was something that she never imagined and could never think of. Shahid had a big heart. And this is what got both of them back together.
Today both of them are happy together. One of the longest love stories is on the tracks again, just that there was some interruption in between. But I am damn sure that after a hurdle like this, it will make the relationship more strong. Shahid took a chance, a very big risk. He could have easily lost her, had Saif known how to behave. This was not worth a chance to be taken. You don’t meet people daily who you fall in love with. He believed in the thought “If you love someone, let her free, if she comes back she was yours, else she never was”. And this did turn out to be true.
Present scenario:
Kareena – “I am very happy that I made the decision of coming back home. Although I miss London and my friend Tanaaz J, I am glad that Shahid is with me today. But this is not what Shahid does. Why does he always have to be like Shahrukh?”
Shahid- “ Maine Dance pe Chance maara, cuz Jab we met, to main uspe Fida ho gaya tha aur mujhe pata tha hum dono ka Vivah hone wala hai… yeh Ishq Vishq bhi bade Kaminey type ki cheez hai.. but at he end Mauja hi Mauja”
Saif-“Was I ever a part of it?? Chalo koi na, love aaj kal mein yeh sab chalta rehta hai. But real life mein aisa nahi hone wala ;)”
Ranbir- “Yeh hai Ajab prem ki gazab kahani, I have already woken up. But where is my Deepika?”
Maa-“Aakhir Maa ki mamta hi kaam aayi (sob sob), main to pehle se kehti thi key eh ladka heera hai heera, par meri sunta hi kaun hai. Beti chali gayi videsh, aur beta poore din chocolate boy bana ghoomta rehta hai, ab aap hi batao ek maa kya kare J”
Abhisek-“Bhai meri to Aish ho gayi, Adios readers, if this made u smile please drop a comment. Love you guys”
Its been like the longest time that I have written and now a days I have started doubting my writing abilities. Its really sad that in spite of having at least a few people that follow what I write, I never take the pains to do so. Anyways, today I am gonna narrate a story, a very long story which I have made it short, but if I get good response, I would want to write a whole book on it. This is just a gist of it. Let’s see how good I bring across the story to you guys.
Since childhood, we have read thoughts and proverbs of great writers. It sounds so good when you read those. Every morning in the school, I used to read the thought of the day and felt that one could never be true. It just words and those would be rather tough to put into actions. But I have seen one come true, and which one was that???? For that you would have to read the whole story.
And yeah it is a love story, so lets name the gal Kareena and lets name the guy Shahid. I would keep adding characters as the story progresses. I have used such name to make it a lil bit funny and you could picture a proper scene in your head while you read this.
Dec 1998;
Shahid and Kareena used to live in the same building since childhood. Both of them had a crush on each other, they also don’t remember since when. Kareena used to wish, whenever she pressed the elevator button, that she would meet Shahid in the elevator and both of them could spend a few floors together, without saying anything. Just smiling. Shahid was also not less. He used to wait for Kareena, sitting in his balcony and as soon as he would see her, he would turn on the stereo system inside the room and sit with a guitar in his hand, pretending to play one. Such a beautiful time it is, when we are kids and we think we are in love and we try our best to impress the other person. So such sweet cute and kiddish gestures continued for a couple of years, until they reached their late teenage. It was probably the mid of 2001 when Shahid gathered all the courage he had, to ask out Kareena. Ask out Kareena for what? To ride her to the tuitions on the new bike he had bought J… but finally both of them confessed their love and attraction for each other and here starts one of the longest love stories that I have ever known.
The first couple of years were amazing. The other person was the world for them. If you had seen them, you would have wondered that are there any other people who are more in love with each other than both of them. They used to go for movies, asked for corner seats and hold hands while watching movies. They used to sit on the same side of the table when they went out to eat. They shared the same bottle, with two straws in it. And when the guy was asked to have the last sip, he said I don’t need need this, I already have you. They used to celebrate monthly anniversaryJ. Things like these continued and within a blink of an eye, they were celebrating their sixth annual anniversary. J Kareena had already graduated from school and she was about to leave for London for her higher studies. This was a very emotional and touchy moment for both of them. Never in their lives, there hadn’t been a time where they would not see other for a long period of time. It was not at all easy for them to part. But they had to. They had no other option.
A couple of days before Kareena was supposed to leave for London, both of them sat on the rocks by the sea, their sights stretching out through the horizons, sitting hand n hand, speechless. The silence spoke everything. They could feel the presence of each other. They could imagine their life complete with each other. They decided that they would get engaged once Kareena finished her studies. Both the families also knew about their relationship. It wasn’t a secret anymore. Kareena’s brother, Ranbir, was also Shahid’s friend by now and Kareena’s mom, lets just call her Maa also knew Shahid very well and they were more like friends.
Just when everything seems to be going right, something unexpected happens. I know you guys also might be sensing it, cuz everything was going so smooth, and that is not possible. There has to be hurdles, there has to be challenges. A few months after she came here, Shahid started acting weird. He started checking her mails, calls, etc. From the perfect boyfriend anyone could have, he started being over possessive and dominant, which was too much for Kareena to handle. Being away from home, from Maa, from friends added to the agony of Kareena, and it was not too late before the bubble busted and they decided to walk their own paths. It was heart breaking, for both of them. How could such a beautiful relation like that come to such an abrupt end? But it was the end and both of them had to realize it. Kareena was a lil slow in getting used to the fact that she was single again, after seven long years. It took her time, it took her courage, it took her tears and took her a lot of strength to get back up and now walk alone with no one around.
Let’s fast forward almost a year and half now. Life again got back to normal for both of them. Kareena studied in London and was working, made new friends, met new people. Shahid was in India, doing his own work. Both of them were on their ways. But the thought still bothered Kareena. She would have nightmares. She would wake up in the middle of the night. Things were not as easy as it would seem. On the other side of the globe, Shahid was still talking to Ranbir and also made it a point to regularly visit Maa. This was frustrating Kareena to the core, as both of them had stopped being in touch through any form, may it be calls, mails or texts.
But however good or bad the situation is, it changes. And for Kareena it was the same. On this very important stage of life, where she was done studying and wedding was on the cards, she met this guy in London called Saif. Both of them clicked instantly. It didn’t take them long to get acquainted to each other. They already knew each other from before, but they personally got to know each other in the summer of 2009. And it wasn’t even a couple of months that they were into a relationship and were thinking about engagement and wedding etc etc. Love was in the air again, the bells were ringing, the birds were chirping. It was one relationship that everyone including Kareena was excited about. But what was Shahid doing back in India. Was he dating someone?? Was he still waiting for Kareena?? No one knew his where abouts.
Kareena’s friend Abhisek always used to tell her that don’t you think this is going way too fast. He always said that the faster you rise, the more quickly you fall. And it was just a matter of time that it had to happen. Kareena left London to go back to Maa and Saif started showing his true colors. Why did this happen to her?? In both the times, why did the guys turn out to be like this as soon as distance came into the relationship? Kareena was not as broke as one would have thought after that. She was ok. May be cuz it wasn’t a long time that they were dating and good that it happened quickly.
She went back home, to the same building where Shahid lived. She wished not to confront him, trying to avoid. But one fine day, they landed up together in the elevator. The same scene was replayed, which Kareena always hoped would happen about 10 years ago. Both of them in the elevator, but no one uttered a word. It was weird. And as every Hindi movie, where mom plays a vital role, so did Maa play an important role here. She played the cupid. She told her certain things which Kareena never knew. Some stuff she absolutely had no idea of. Right after Kareena had left for London, Shahid saw that in this far away land, she was doing good, trying to focus on her career and so he did not wanna be a botheration in that. That was the reason he started acting weird and different, so that they could part off and she could not be constrained by the relationship and could strive for her dreams. That was something that she never imagined and could never think of. Shahid had a big heart. And this is what got both of them back together.
Today both of them are happy together. One of the longest love stories is on the tracks again, just that there was some interruption in between. But I am damn sure that after a hurdle like this, it will make the relationship more strong. Shahid took a chance, a very big risk. He could have easily lost her, had Saif known how to behave. This was not worth a chance to be taken. You don’t meet people daily who you fall in love with. He believed in the thought “If you love someone, let her free, if she comes back she was yours, else she never was”. And this did turn out to be true.
Present scenario:
Kareena – “I am very happy that I made the decision of coming back home. Although I miss London and my friend Tanaaz J, I am glad that Shahid is with me today. But this is not what Shahid does. Why does he always have to be like Shahrukh?”
Shahid- “ Maine Dance pe Chance maara, cuz Jab we met, to main uspe Fida ho gaya tha aur mujhe pata tha hum dono ka Vivah hone wala hai… yeh Ishq Vishq bhi bade Kaminey type ki cheez hai.. but at he end Mauja hi Mauja”
Saif-“Was I ever a part of it?? Chalo koi na, love aaj kal mein yeh sab chalta rehta hai. But real life mein aisa nahi hone wala ;)”
Ranbir- “Yeh hai Ajab prem ki gazab kahani, I have already woken up. But where is my Deepika?”
Maa-“Aakhir Maa ki mamta hi kaam aayi (sob sob), main to pehle se kehti thi key eh ladka heera hai heera, par meri sunta hi kaun hai. Beti chali gayi videsh, aur beta poore din chocolate boy bana ghoomta rehta hai, ab aap hi batao ek maa kya kare J”
Abhisek-“Bhai meri to Aish ho gayi, Adios readers, if this made u smile please drop a comment. Love you guys”
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